Beat-172

6:26 minutes

The BEAT-172 video journey at the end is beyond natural. Supernatural.

Fetal heart beat at 11-weeks pregnancy – Audio. 19 seconds.
Go to the bottom of this article to find out the beats per minute.

The seed that started it all was a 86-beat-per-minute rock drum track. A YouTube link was emailed to me as a subscriber to this guys newsletter. He’s a drummer and makes drum tracks to jam with. I liked it and stored in on my computer.

Anyway, so I found 86bpm music. I found a list. I picked some. I found them on YouTube and downloaded them. I ran them through a beat counter online tool and found that actually they’re 172bpm. Let’s see. I think 86bpm x 2 = 172bpm.

I found a Nordic song with chanting I liked but it was 179bpm. So I slowed it down to 172bpm. I was starting to get an interesting collection of modified music. Everything needed to be fixed some way. Often the music clips were overdriving and clipping. So I’d put it through a compressor to clean it up.

I downloaded an 86bpm metronome clip.

I assembled the music in an open-source program called Audacity. A track for each song and then excerpted sections. All but the rock drum track which pounds in 86-bpm beat through the entire piece. This give a seamless feeling to everything.

I then deleted a few music tracks that didn’t fit well thematically. Oddly, one track I kept was 117bpm by Oasis called “Wonderwall.” It worked at the beginning. Not sure why yet. But I bet 117bpm is a rhythmic mathematical relationship to 86bpm or 172bpm. 1:1.36 or 1:1.47 ratio. Wonder what that means in music language?

Date: June 26, 2019
Source: Massachusetts Institute of Technology
Summary: “In a surprising marriage of science and art, researchers have developed a system for converting the molecular structures of proteins, the basic building blocks of all living beings, into audible sound that resembles musical passages. Then, reversing the process, they can introduce some variations into the music and convert it back into new proteins never before seen in nature.”

I think I may be a rock scientist. A super-smart rock scientist.

So I now had a pretty cool sound track. Built with the following lyric excerpts and in this order:

Oasis: “Wonderwall” 1995

[Verse 1]
Today is gonna be the day that they’re gonna throw it back to you
By now, you should have somehow realized what you gotta do
I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

[Verse 2]
Backbeat, the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is out
I’m sure you’ve heard it all before, but you never really had a doubt
I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

Nickelback: “You Remind Me” 2003

[Verse 1]
Never made it as a wise man
I couldn’t cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
I’m sick of sight without a sense of feeling
And this is how you remind me

[Pre-Chorus]
This is how you remind me of what I really am
This is how you remind me of what I really am

[Chorus]
It’s not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I’m mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breaking
And I’ve been wrong, I’ve been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream “Are we having fun yet?”

[Post-Chorus]
Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no

[Verse 2]
It’s not like you didn’t know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
And it must have been so bad
‘Cause living with me must have damn near killed you

Green Day: “Boulevard Of Broken Dreams” 2004

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don’t know where it goes
But it’s home to me, and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I’m the only one, and I walk alone
I walk alone, I walk alone
I walk alone, I walk a-

[Chorus]
My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone

Then I began searching for video clips and sound effects.

I decided to focus on the drums and borrowed heavily from Shania Twain’s drummer, Elijah Wood, playing drums at a live rock concert.

“However, during the Shania Now tour many of us left completely captivated and blown away by her drummer Elijah Wood. Elijah from the very start of the show caught the attention of the audience with just one drum beat. As Elijah began to rock the drumkit our hearts beat to the rhythm and we were sold!” – Oct 1, 2018

REFERENCE

I put Elijah in slow-motion.I also have clips of a third-world wooden machine pounding, a clock spinning, robots playing drums, and a bunch of skeletons playing marching drums and forming a parade of people dressed as skeletons and ghosts.

The video starts with a clip of my voice saying, “We have deep, deep curiosities and we love to solve puzzles. The deepest thing of all is we like to help people. We want you to be self-reliant. We want to be self-reliant. It’s one of our core values. And so, if we can help you achieve the same, we’ve set you free, and you’ve set us free. We’re trying to make the world a better place.”

Sound effects include: Dark Atmosphere, Dark slam, Heavy Pulsing Machine Sound Effects, Ocean, Rumble, And sort of a “Zoompf!” sound.

The video starts and ends with the metronome ticking at 86 beats per minute.

It’s a message from inside of me.

Pushing forwards like a pounding heart beat. So it’s titled “BEAT-172.”


Fetal tachycardia is defined as a heart rate greater than 160 to 180 beats per minute (bpm). A sustained fetal heart rate exceeding the normal resting rate is uncommon, affecting fewer than 1 percent of all pregnancies.


Normally, even the most complex of meters may be broken down into a chain of duple and triple pulses either by addition or division. According to Pierre Boulez, beat structures beyond four, in western music, are “simply not natural.”

Short tempo (beat): of the order of one second (1 Hz, 60 bpm). Musical tempo is generally specified in the range 40 to 240 beats per minute. A continuous pulse cannot be perceived as a musical beat if it is faster than 8 to 10 per second (8 – 10 Hz, 480 – 600 bpm) or slower than 1 per 1.5 – 2 seconds (0.6 – 0.5 Hz, 40 – 30 bpm). Too fast a beat becomes a drone, too slow a succession of sounds seems unconnected. This time frame roughly corresponds to the human heart rate and to the duration of a single step, syllable or rhythmic gesture.

The study of rhythm, stress, and pitch in speech is called prosody: it is a topic in linguistics and poetics, where it means the number of lines in a verse, the number of syllables in each line and the arrangement of those syllables as long or short, accented or unaccented. Music inherited the term “meter or metre” from the terminology of poetry.


Infants born to depressed women had altered central nervous system development, exhibited less activity and endurance, and exhibited more irritability.

Stress-related changes in a pregnant woman’s heart rate and blood pressure, along with chronic anxiety, can affect the heart rate of her developing fetus, a new study concludes.

I wonder if fetal heart beat was 172bpm?

Heart beat In the umbilical artery obtained from women during the Doppler fetal umbilical artery waveform recording. Made at 10 – 13 weeks of gestation.

Fetal heart rate: 157 – 174 bpm

Coincidence?

19-second audio file:
Fetal heart beat
at 11-weeks pregnancy with 172 beat-per-minute metronome superimposed.

I didn’t alter any beats or audio. This is the real deal. The two beats match exactly.

172bpm is not a normal fetal heart rate but the rate of a fetus under stress. It is the same rate as the driving beat of a heavy metal rock concert. The effect? An adrenaline rush from a sense of danger.

Amazing.

What’s the hidden message about my pregnant mother?

Anxiety, stress, depression. Abusive spouse. Night terrors. PTSD. She was living in hell.

So what?

Well, for one thing, I now have more empathy and understanding about my mother’s pregnancy.

One Eye Open

16:54 minutes

In Mortal Engines, why did Shrike let Hester go? We learn that Shrike helped raise Hester after her mother was killed and, despite supposedly not having feelings, he develops a father-like bond with her. Hester left Shrike to avenge her mother’s death, breaking her promise that she would stay and become resurrected like him.

Hester Shaw is my Ophelia. Killed “for a little while” by Skrike (secret inner heartless obsessive stalker robot). Killed meaning submerged or drown in the subconscious mind. But now Ophelia is making her escape vulnerably loving other humans. Shrike releases Hester from her promise when he realizes there is no more pain in her heart. My promise to God was never telling about the childhood abuse because my mother would die. Her death released me.

The video is excerpts from “Mortal Engines” featuring Shrike the half-man monster. It’s about the compulsive stalker robot working inside trying to protect us from pain and vulnerability by removing our heart.

The music track is Metallica’s “Enter Sandman.” My mother repeated this exact bedtime prayer used in the song every night with us before my father abused me in the night. “Should I die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take.”

Enter Sandman
by Metallica

Say your prayers, little one
Don’t forget my son to include everyone
I tuck you in, warm within, keep you free from sin
Till the sandman he comes

Sleep with one eye open
Gripping your pillow tight

Exit light
Enter night
Take my hand
We’re off to never-never land

Something’s wrong, shut the light, heavy thoughts tonight
And they aren’t Snow White

Dreams of war, dreams of liars, dreams of dragon’s fire
And of things that will bite, yeah

Sleep with one eye open
Gripping your pillow tight

Exit light
Enter night
Take my hand
We’re off to never-never land

Now I lay me down to sleep
Now I lay me down to sleep
Pray the lord my soul to keep
Pray the lord my soul to keep
If I die before I wake
If I die before I wake
Pray the lord my soul to take
Pray the lord my soul to take

Hush, little baby, don’t say a word
And never mind that noise you heard
It’s just the beasts under your bed
In your closet, in your head

Exit light
Enter night
Grain of sand

Exit light
Enter night
Take my hand
We’re off to never-never land

Boo!
Yeah, yeah
No, oh, yeah

We’re off to never-never land
Take my hand
We’re off to never-never land
Take my hand
We’re off to never-never land

***

Annie-

I wanted to share some ideas based on what you wrote. One is you have detected / perceived things other have not or else they were afraid to mention it. I appreciate your depth.

I’ll make my comments in Arial Blue.

AN OPEN EYE

Music sucks you right into the video.

Rock like

Cathartic?

Release energy or creates energy?

Calms or agitates

The music is Metallica (heavy metal rock band). I don’t like most heavy metal but this song seemed to fit. It felt right thematically, poetically, and even lyrically. It’s pounding. And your right it agitates or arouses something. But it is also dark. It is about death (off to never-never land). It is about fear of things in the night. And that is when many children are abused. They become afraid of the night. Like me. Afraid to go to sleep. I literally used to sleep with my eyelids half closed. One Eye Open. My legs were crossed tight and my arms crossed across my chest with fist clenched. Always ready for fight or fight. While Terrie was gone, I slept in my clothes. Fireman style.

Jewelry eyeball good.

“Collect broken things others throw away”

Very powerful, message from abuser – you are broken, people throw you away

“No heart like me”

For the abused, there is an internal robot placed in our heads. It’s goal is to protect us from emotional pain. It removes our heart. I call this The invisible Hand. It’s when we behave in a way that is contrary or inexplicable to our true nature. Mysterious. It’s often a defensive protective move to avoid vulnerability. That is most often intimacy. We may twist our selves to find an intimacy substitute. It’s an insatiable robot stalker.

“Keeping you free from sin” ???

This seems odd doesn’t it. I’ve thought about that lyric, too. So here’s some thoughts: 1) Abusers often bully the victim into thinking “the abuse” is the victims fault. Or the victim deserves this kind of treatment (a sin). 2) Some abusers think their bad treatment keeps the victim safe from sin like a reverse-psychology protection. Weird I know. “No one can deflower you now – because I already did.” 3) Some abused people become pious and self-righteous. Their shame makes them contemptuous and judgmental. The become cold and frigid.

Right away before he said I’ll remake you, the being under the sheet that is revealed is her and you can tell sense this immediately. Same height, Face is free of scar. Seemed for one second her face was also free of scars, but then the rest of the video she has the scars. (I think that was my subconscious wanting her to be whole…likely the scar was their the whole time.)

She is scarred by her father accidentally while trying to protect her mother from her father’s murder attempt. He does kill her mother. She is disfigured and escapes. All victims of abuse carry emotional scars. This, of course ,resonates with me and my parents behaviors. And the smothering of our human vulnerability / intimacy “only kills us for a little while.” Then we are reborn without a heart (unable to be loved).

Her hands touching the face – very effective. She really wants this.

I hadn’t noticed it consciously but she is fascinated by the idea and horrified at the same moment. You can wear the robot mask of normalcy but you have to let your heart die. No more human feelings.

Scar face – many levels of things related to this. Good

Yeah.

When the guy arrives he tells her she broke her promise – very effective. You see her fear.

It’s not only fear of physical death but the death of her heart (feelings) he’s come to take. Now the real kicker here for me is I made a promise to God never to tell what happened. If I did my mom would die. That had been proven to me beyond doubt. That monster kept coming back to remind me, be silent or your mom will die.

Hester Shaw is Ophelia in my mind. She is the part of me wounded, promised (oath), running, and stalked every night by a robot who wanted to kill me (off to never-never land). Who cut out my fragile emotions. More on Ophelia later in next video review below.

Then the someone who came to rescue her, put her at risk. Teaches not to trust people.

Good point. Often I want to help abused people whether they want to be helped or not. They are not ready and don’t want to go into the pit of despair. I feel rejected (Ophelia Rejected). They’d rather ignore or avoid remembering those feelings. Of course, that then means they can’t be cured. Why? Because they can’t be intimate and trust. They can never fall into the arms of another for fear of being dropped again (betrayed).

She rescues him back when she throws the man the knife and he cuts the “tie” Good metaphor.

The Pearl Girl effect – saving reciprocity. Another good observation. Cutting the (umbilical) cord. Shrike the robot has been her protector. She has a new protector now. A healthier one.

At rescue place:

“Sorry, keep you free from sin”? Did I hear that right in the script. If so, poetic, since she is “sinned again” by this being sometime early in her life.

You have the same response to the phrase about “sin” in the song sound track I do. It bugs me somehow and I wonder, “What does that mean?” What does it have to do with monsters in the night? Or does it have to do with the idea we feel perpetually unworthy of love because we are dirty. All abused child feel unworthy. Religion can foment that. Religion can be a tool or a weapon.

Her – “This is their version.” Very effective.

She then pauses on the bridge and the man in ahead of her heading towards the being. The man looks back at her and tells her to come in. She is afraid to go but then does.

She then faces the bad dude and says “I’m the one you came for. Let him go.” He can’t initially, then his eyes are no longer green – good.

His anger dies with sudden realization. Her heart is no longer full of pain. He doesn’t need to remove it any longer. The obsessive mission is aborted. She is in love.

“You love him. I release you from your promise.” CRAZY EFFECTIVE.

Fantastically poetic. And oddly, the music fits. The pounding beat. It takes a message to your core and you may not even know what it is. But it is loving our self and feeling loved cures. Cures what? The brokenness, the compulsion, the memory of pain, the parental betrayal. Even though Hester Shaw is scarred, she is beautiful.

Then he dies.

And as he dies, he remembers his own humanity. He was human once. He wanted to take away her pain because he loved her. Misguided: like a mother drowning her child to keep him from his abusive father. Take him or her to heaven. This death scene is full of deep meanings. And she loved the robot. She is distressed he is dying. He protected her and kept her alive. But she no longer needs to have her “emotions” surgically removed. She can be vulnerable and intimate again.

Jewelry eyeball is at end also – good.

This object plays an important part in the big story of “Mortal Engines”. It was a gift from her dying mother and has a secret key inside. A key to power.

EXCELLENT – going back in time to young – either felt safe or good, or thought safe?

However, end leaves you feeling better but obviously unsettled. The whole story is not truly known of what happened (how true is this for those recovering from trauma!!), and does she really feel safe. She is released however, of the promise.

Right!

Ophelia Rejected

6:34 minutes

“Ophelia Rejected” is about feeling like a sexual sinner. You can bath daily and you never feel clean. The dirty goes to the core.

I have several Ophelia videos. The horse is my inner black unicorn. The beast I ride to safety. Ophelia is the vulnerable side of me that never got out of the bath tub at age 6. She lay there repressed under the waters of the unconscious mind for decades. Drown. Mummified in water. It’s time for Ophelia (my tender poetic feeling side) to come out of the water and ride the powerful animal (creativity) to freedom. The Unicorn is my strange creative gift. The gift is enhanced by my trauma pain. The unicorn is my masculine traits and Ophelia my feminine traits.

Snake on body – scary.

See hands a lot in video. Good. Distal part of self, but where you touch the world. Not your core.

Good visual – Alone/loneliness when underwater. I felt a sense aloneness during the underwater scenes AND reminded me of how it felt to me when swimming underwater.

Yes. Ophelia is very lonely. But a good pounding ride blows out the cobweb.

Horse visuals are good, feel safer. Not when riding horses, but when connected to such a big animal.

BIG BLACK HORSE = EMPOWERMENT A marriage of opposites.

Drain sound at end if AWFUL – as in very effective. But somehow feels very very different from the balance of the video. Feels disconnected. Is that intentional.

The unpleasant sound breaks continuity with the rest. It is jarring and a disturbing irritating juxtaposition. It is life going down the drain but also the waters falling away. The rocks underwater then seem to rise up. They were there all along. Buried. Remembering the discomfort. It’s a sucking sound. That has two meanings: release and loss. My subconscious said to put this sound in and the visual of dirty bath tub water. Elimination.

General comment: Visual is too sexual.

Sex isn’t mentioned in the voiceover. But this video is about sexual abuse and violence. Being sodomized by your father is too sexual. Emotional incest by your mother is too sexual. It “screws you” around.

Ophelia is sexual. Her sexuality requires vulnerability. It’s a sexual healing. I’m not defending being offensive in the name of art. It’s deliberately, uncomfortably sexual. “There are two levels to your pain. The pain you create now. And the pain from the [traumatic sexual] past that still lives on in your mind and body.”

In the animal test, how you feel about water is how you feel about your sexuality. Dirty bath tub water going down the drain.

BENEXUS episode 6: Bennu

7:08 minutes

Smoke curled around Iyo as the Phoenix emerged from his obscure nest. His beak and talons glowed like liquid metal.

“Mark Skorn,” The Phoenix’s voice vibrated through the air. Iyo sunk to his knees. His exhaustion from climbing the mountain dropped him. He felt the overwhelming presence of the Phoenix. He wanted to say something. But he couldn’t find the words. Tears welled in his eyes and he looked at the stony earth beneath him.

“Mark,” He said again. Iyo brought his gaze to the Phoenix. “I am Bennu. I am as I was at the founding of the ocean. You know me.”

“I do,” Iyo said in a strained voice, “You taught Somer Krest.”

His voice caught as he said his dead mentor’s name. Bennu towered over Iyo, he splayed his wings. White smoke swirled around the mountaintop. Warmth enveloped Iyo from the Phoenix’s chest. He felt the pain in his heart fade to a dull ache as love covered him.

“Somer rests now with the fathers of Ahten. He served this nation well. You fear the loss of him. But, the princess and Arrow are not lost from you forever. Your friend betrayed you, he has his reward,” Bennu’s words rattled Iyo’s chest. “Fear not. You are not alone. I am still here. Even when you feel alone and are in the deepest despair, I am with you.”

“I don’t deserve that,” Iyo breathed. “You shouldn’t hang on to me.”

“I chose you and you are mine. Don’t be afraid. From now until the restoration of the ocean, do my work in bringing about the salvation of Shiloh. I remember the promises I made to the people of Shiloh. The sand will yield fruit. It will prosper renewed. Do what I say and follow my words, Mark Skorn, and you will live to see the flowers bloom in Shiloh again.”

“I ruined everything,” Iyo said. “How can I be the one to fix all this after trusting Yew Rue and losing the princess? Driver is dead. Somer is dead. The people who could help me most are gone. I’m lost.”

“Was it not I who first brought the ocean?” Bennu boomed.

“Yes.”

“Do you not believe I can do it again?” He continued. Iyo pressed his hands to his face and took a deep breath. Bennu spoke again, “Do – you – believe?”

“Yes,” Iyo said, dropping his hands.

“That is enough,” The Phoenix stretched out his broad wing bringing the white feathers close to Iyo’s face. “I touched Somer under his eye when I chose him. The Benexus I made then is the one I make now with you. I see you, Iyo and your soul is bare before my eyes. Now you will see me as I truly am.”

The bristles of Bennu’s longest wing feather tickled Iyo’s cheek. Brilliant white light blinded him, blocking out all in the world. The universe seemed to dissolve around him.

“This,” Bennu said quietly. “Is Benexus.”

 

BENEXUS: Episode 5 – Ashes

6:07 minutes

Far in high rocky terrain, Lamia’s men chased three Scarab soldiers. Burdened by bulky sacks and a loaded supply sled, the Scarab struggled in the brisk wind and snow. Snow, ice, and earth exploded. Lamia’s men launched nitromite.
“Alright Yew, if you’re gonna pull one of your classic tricks – now is the time!” the large man pushing the sled yelled. The young man he hollered at was carrying two sacks of provisions. The shapeless fur pelts masked his broad shoulders and tight muscular build. Long dark hair whipped across his face as he turned to see the pursuers.
“Classic trick – unoriginal,” he snorted. He’d seen close calls and scraping by with his quick thinking and motor reflexes. But nothing came to mind with this hard-and-fast chase. “I … I’m … thinking!”
His pace quickened as the enemies drew closer, his voice bouncing as he leaped.
“Zingara knows this place best, Bol,” He shouted. “Got any ideas for us, Zin?”
“Stop … calling … me … Zin,” Zingara yelled back. She was most beautiful when yelling at Yew Rue commands. “And no, just stop yelling. The bridge is up here.”
A skinny outcropping of rock allowed travelers to pass from one side of the mountain to another. They crossed it sneaking into Lamia’s camp. Now they urgently needed to cross back.
“Ok, I got it,” Yew said excitedly. “I’ll not stop yelling. This is going to work.”
Yew Rue ran faster and his comrades responded picking up speed. Bol out of respect and Zingara because she wanted to. Not because Yew Rue told her to.
“Hey, Zin, here’s your big chance to deliver an awesome one-liner, what do you say?” Yew Rue asked, keeping pace with her.
“I’d say; “Leave me alone Yew Rue or I’ll throw you off this mountain.”
“No. That’s way too long,” He shrugged it off between breaths. “What about you, Bol?”
“One chance?” Bol panted.
“Yeah. Last chance.”
“Man. I dunno. Maybe a pun,” He suggested. Yew Rue considered this as he panted.
“That might work for me. Here! The bridge! Zin, you first.”
“Stop yelling,” Zingara cautioned and took the lead. A close nitromite blast erupted. Yew Rue shielded his friends.
“Yelling is the whole plan,” Yew Rue shouted. Bol made it across. Yew bolted across the skinny bridge. He tossed the sacks in front of him. Diving across. He waited. Lamia’s men arrived on the ledge. With all the might in his lungs, Yew roared; “See you on the other — slide!”
The three men froze, frightened. The snow above trembled and began to cascade. They screamed. Helpless, they slid down the mountain. Yew Rue winced. He glanced back at his friends.
“Slide? Get it? Punning was the right choice,” He said sheepishly. Zingara rolled her golden eyes.
“You’re an idiot, Yew Rue,” she said scornfully.
“Do you prefer idiots?” Yew Rue grinned cheekily. Bol laughed. Zingara turned sharply and marched on the trail toward camp. Her raven black hair swished behind her. With no immediate danger, Bol and Yew Rue ambled back.
“She likes me. Can you tell?” Yew feigned whispering.
“Oh yeah. Definitely,” Bol said unconvinced, “She hides it under her — disdain.”
“Exactly,” he elbowed his big friend, “Now, you get it.”
“You need a dose of reality, man,” Bol said. “You could have any young woman in the whole Scarab army. You’re a fool chasing after the only one who hates you.”
“Hate is a strong word, Bol,” Yew said, “She’s angry for me being the only person as beautiful as her.”
“That doesn’t make sense. Men are handsome.”
“Either way, women aren’t prizes won. Or things that I get from being good looking. Women are just like us. But so much more,” Yew mused, “And Zingara’s a rarity. She’s strong and passionate. I wish she was passionate about — me.”
“Y’know Yew, say these things to her face. You might have a chance,” Bol chuckled.
“It’s not as fun as teasing her,” he said. His white teeth contrasted against his dark skin. “Besides, I’m not out here to find love. I’m a warrior. I’m here for the war. I’ll cut off the snake’s head.”
“You seem overconfident.”
“Yeah, I’ve talked to people about that before,” Yew said as they entered the camp. People already stood around Zingara cheering. They rejoiced more when Bol showed up with a full sled of supplies. Yew Rue dropped his bags down for the soldiers to take and stock. He looked up to see a tall, dark man standing in front of the three of them.
‘Report,” The man said in a gnarled voice. He had olive skin from spending years in the sun. His basalt gray beard was forked. The dark color stayed over his temples but bled out into snow-white into his shoulder-length hair. His hair was close-cropped on the sides. He had two scars on the right side of his face, both large and lighter than his dark skin. One ran along his cheekbone and the other over his eye down to his lip.
Yew Rue thought Zingara would report. But she was looking expectantly at him with her gorgeous golden eyes. The old man’s eyes had the same shade of gold.
“General Krest, sir,” Yew saluted. “We were in and out. No difficulties until three armed guards spotted us. They gave pursuit. We lost them over the bridge. And discovered puns make well-timed jokes.”
Krest scowled at Yew’s flippancy.
“How much did you bring?”
“At least another month’s worth, sir,” Yew replied, still in salute. A smile broke over General Somer Krest’s stern face.
“Good man!” He clapped Yew Rue on the shoulder and Yew dropped the salute.
Somer hugged Zingara. “And you kept my precious daughter safe, too. Well done.”
“Your daughter, she kept me safe, sir,” he said with a half-grin. Bol snorted.
“Of course she did,” Somer put a hand on Yew and Zingara’s arms. “I’d like to see you both in the war tent. Five minutes tops.”
He squeezed Yew’s shoulder then left. Yew Rue punched Bol in the arm. He quickly accompanied Zingara as she followed her father.
“Can I walk you to the tent?” he asked.
Zingara let out a sigh.
“Fine,” she said. “That’s where we’re both going anyway.”
“You’re such a peach,” he beamed.
“OK. I changed my mind. Walk with someone else,” she said.
“Zingara, no one could … There is no one I’d rather be with.”
Zingara laughed and immediately pretended a cough. “Allergies.”
“What? Are you allergic to sincere, heartfelt honesty?” he asked, matching her stride.
“No, I’m allergic to the bull roar you speak. If I had a sign that you were being sincere, I might consider letting you walk with me more. Oh look, we’re here,” She held the tent flap open for him. “After you.”
“I’d like to complete this conversation … soon,” he said in a gentle whisper. Zingara let out a short breath and followed him into the war council tent.
“Excellent time,” Somer said, sitting at the head of the table. “Good soldiers, responding immediately.”
He gestured to his daughter and Yew Rue. They made it to the tent in under a minute when they asked to be there in five.
“Well you know us, sir,” Yew said with a twinkle in his eye.
“That I do my boy, please sit.”
Zingara and he found seats opposite each other. Several important leaders in the militia were there. Yew Rue had never attended a meeting like this before. He’d been to important meetings. But never one with all the leaders at once. Well, all the available leaders.
“I’ll cut the formalities and get to the point,” General Krest said gruffly. “Last night the Phoenix was reborn. This means it’s now time to begin our march on Shiloh.”
“Sir,” one of the captains spoke.
“Yes, Captain Whesk?”
“There is only a small segment of men who believe in the Phoenix. How will you convince the non-believers to join in the march?”
“Oh for iah’s sake Captain. If they do not march then they are not part of the army. And if they aren’t for the saving of Shiloh, they are against it. They’re in the cold without our resources. Please consider the logic of questions before you open your mouth,” Somer held a wiry hand to his head.
“Sir, Captain Whesk has a point,” a woman spoke up. “There’s no proof the Phoenix exists. It’s hard rallying troops around something fictional.”
“Is there anyone in here who doesn’t care if the Phoenix is fake or real?” Krest asked. The room was quiet.
“I don’t sir,” Yew Rue chimed in. “The point is, it’s time to take Lamia. The symbol is that we will rise from the ashes of the destroyed Shiloh and create a new one. So forget the exactness of the Phoenix. Let’s focus on what it represents.”
The room went silent again. Somer Krests eyes crinkled with a smile.
“Well said,” Then he was back to the business of war. “Whatever the reason for the march, I’m deploying five squadrons to cross the desert. They converge at the first wall of Shiloh. Thanks to Lieutenant Rue, we now have enough supplies to endure the trip. Fourteen raids on Lamia’s camps. It’s a miracle he and his men kept our camp secret.”
“Please, sir. It’s my men doing the work,” Yew Rue said, giving them credit.
“Either way. I’m promoting you to Captain of the First Squadron. Lead us straight across the Ahten desert. Pack immediately. Take a small team down to Jocer, the well town near the mountain base. I have a strong feeling about this Yew. Take Zingara with you. Go get everything you need now. Dismissed.”
“Yessir,” Yew Rue said in bewilderment.

BENEXUS Episode 4 – Caves+Braids

7:36 minutes

BENEXUS Episode 4

She massaged water in Iyo’s hair – brushing it with her fingers.

“Wish I had a comb. That’d be easier…” She gathered his hair and began braiding. “Iyo is your battle name. What’s your birth name?”

Silence.

“Promise you’ll protect it?” he asked.

“I won’t tell a soul,” she said, “Names have power.”

“Mark Skorn,” he said.

“Mark? Mark Skorn,” she repeated in a quiet voice. “Do you swear your life to the true crown of Shiloh – and promise everything in your power to keep it safe?”

“What?” Iyo asked.

“The braids are oaths,” Arrow explained. “I told you this earlier remember?”

“I thought you were joking. Can’t you give me a haircut without owing my life to the princess?” He turned around gazing at her. She leaned on his chair. Her face close to his.

“Look at this mess, Iyo,” she held up his tangles. “You’re unable to think straight. You don’t know why you’re fighting this war. Your dark hair is an expression of your soul – your inner mystery. It’s a tangled confused mess. It’s time to change. Come be a Royal Bodyguard to the princess – with me.”

He looked into her eyes, her face still inches from his. She didn’t break deep eye contact. Iyo without forethought grasped her strong hand.

“Yes,” he said, “I’ll be a Royal Bodyguard – with you.”

He turned, stopped, and glanced over his bare shoulder.

“Braid me,” he breathed in a low seductive voice. She inhaled a quick breath.

“Don’t say that,” the smile on her face disappeared into a scowl.

“It’s a joke,” he said.

“Yeah. OK,” Arrow took his long hair in her hands. Her razor glided close to his head. Clumps of hair fluttered to the cave floor. A stubble ran from the base of his neck to the crown of his head and around to his temples. His long top hair dangled. Arrow straightened his hair once again with her fingers.

“Mark Skorn, swear now your life to the true crown of Shiloh – and promise to keep it safe.”

“I do,” he said with a nod. She finished the main braid. Power surged in his chest.

She continued now braiding a smaller braid alongside the first,

“And do you swear to protect me, your sister in arms and fellow bodyguard?”

He paused and exhaled.

“Yes. I do.”

She moved to the other side of the large braid to make an identical smaller one. “Do you swear to protect your brother, Driver, as if he were royalty?”

His eyes stung. She included his little brother in this solemn pledge.

“I do swear it,” he uttered with pride.

She finished the traditional braiding.

“It’s done. You are no longer Mark Skorn,” Arrow pronounced.

Arrow tied all braids together. “Rise. Stand a new man – and a servant of Shiloh.”

He closed his tired eyes, a slow smile creeping across his closed lips. And she overwhelmed his smile with a spirited kiss.

Rider

3:41 minutes

Andy Grammer – Good To Be Alive (Hallelujah)

I’ve been grinding so long, been trying this shit for years
(uh-huh) and I got nothing to show, just climbing this rope right here
(uh-huh) and if there’s a man upstairs, he kept bringing me rain
(uh-huh) but I’ve been sending up prayers and something’s changed

I think I finally found my hallelujah
I’ve been waiting for this moment all my life
Now all my dreams are coming true, yeah
I’ve been waiting for this moment

Feels good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Hallelujah, let that bass line move ya, say hey
Pretty good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)

I was dead in the water, nobody wanted me
(Uh-huh) I was old news, I went cold as cold could be
(Uh-huh) but I kept throwing on coal tryna make that fire burn
(Uh-huh) sometimes you gotta get scars to get what you deserve
(Uh-huh) I kept moving on and now I’m moving up
(Uh-huh) damn, I’m feeling blessed with all this love

I think I finally found my hallelujah
I’ve been waiting for this moment all my life
Now all my dreams are coming true, yeah
I’ve been waiting for this moment

Feels good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Hallelujah, let that bass line move ya, say hey
Pretty good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)

I almost can-, cannot handle it
I could get u-, could get used to this
I almost can-, cannot handle it
I could get u-, could get used to this

I think I finally found my
(Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah)

Feels good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Hallelujah, let that bass line move ya, say hey
Pretty good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)

Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (woo-hoo)
Good, good, good, good to be alive right about now (all right!)