Category: J

Everyone takes things in differently.

and that is valid.

to feel pain

is to be human,

and to be human

is to struggle

from time to time,

just remember

rock bottom

is not your home,

it’s a temporary stop

on this journey of life.

A person may say,

“It’s okay,”

but you are probably tired of hearing it by now.

so, I will not tell you that it is okay,

because you might not believe me,

but I will tell you this:

you have had happy moments in the past;

there’s no reason

for you not to have them

in the future again.

my dear,

there are brighter things on your horizons

if you just hold on

a little longer.

• by Jade Rawlings

For Chloe Wigmore

3:59 minutes

5:36 minutes

The car is swerving

My head is pounding,

I know ill lose my voice by tomorrow

Im saying words

That would never cross my lips

But you have a way of tearing it out of me.

Those eyes

I fell in love with

Turn to steel,

And fill to the brim with disgust.

Your boot stomps down on my bare foot,

Once, twice, three times

And over the sound of your voice

mingled with my guttural sob,

I hear the crack of my bones

But its nothing new.

And we are headed towards a cliff

But i know loving you

Means loving you like this.

1:28 minutes

4:23 minutes

This poem is dedicated to Julie Hadley.

On 3/19/21 6:34 AM, Jade Rawlings wrote:

i LOVE “fallible” the music is perfect, your voice with the feminine voice is really great and flows amazing! “the solution… run, run until you ache in your side, and then laugh at the fright that made you run” that line hit me hard. i want to get that as my next tattoo.

i resonated with it, because something in me tells me to run when i’m afraid but something in me says dare them to try harder.

so many times have i looked into sadistic empty eyes and laughed with a mouth full of blood, taunting him, “if your going to hit me, hit me harder. because hesitation is a dead mans game” almost wishing he would have the courage to end my suffering, but he was never so kind, or maybe he just wasn’t brave enough. “laugh at the fright that made you run” that was powerful. that was timeless. my soul connected to those words. thank you for being a genius.

I replied:

Your words are encouraging.

“Fallible” was made for two people in particular. It helps to have an imaginary audience when building something like that. You and me. And anyone like us.

I’m glad you think I’m a genius. It only counts when you say it. Because it takes one to know one.

2:27 minutes

by Jade Rawlings

HOLY

Salvation doesn’t taste like light,

It tastes like burning coals,

Holy wine isn’t so delightful

as it drips thick crimson from the alter,

Those angels you color so beautifully,

Have thousands of eyes and they are made of fire,

This wisdom of Solomon is not crystal clear,

Is drenched in the black baptismal water,

You kissed a prophet once,

and had nightmares of cities burning

For months after,

To be a martyr is to be sacrificed

To be sacred is to be made of splintered bone,

Rosanna, rosanna, rosanna, to our God in the highest,

Rings in your bleeding ears,

We weren’t made to be holy.

PRODUCTION NOTES

Assets

Stills: black-sparrow-flying-design.jpeg, Jade.PNG credit, Steve.PNG credit

MP3: dizzy-logo, holy-motion.mkv

Voiceover: holy-VO-final.mp3

Music soundtrack:
Outro: Pouring Out – Aasher Fulero.mp3
Fortunate Note – Silent Partner.mp3