8-22-24
Loved and Lost
Maybe I had my head in the clouds.
Maybe I was in a childish dream.
Never knowing what it means,
Or what they think of me.
It started early before I could understand.
Before I knew what life planned.
Pinned against a wall, with an arm around my throat.
My friend since years so young.
Was now holding air trapped in my lungs.
I loved and lost.
I watched in horror
As my dad’s misdeeds turned gorier.
His face warps throughout my mind.
His presence haunted over time.
Taking what was rightfully mine.
I loved and lost.
I pleaded and begged that my mom would stay.
I watched as she slowly faded away.
Taken from me, by her mind’s mental decay.
I loved and lost
Best friends turned into enemies
My dating life turned into tragedy
The deck that’s been handed to me.
I loved and lost.
I trusted family with dark secrets
Only to find their hands held the trigger.
Their betrayal is what lingers.
I loved and lost.
I think of those I lost to death
And how many may be at his door
This pain stays evermore
And my grief rings in my core.
I loved and lost.
They stop, but never stay.
Watching as they slowly fade away.
Will anyone really stay?
Wondering if true love is possible
Or in my case even plausible.
I screamed to be wanted at any cost.
I deeply loved, and I lost.
