Grandad

6:50 minutes

Sabrina Carpenter – Eyes Wide Open
Lyrics
La di da da da na
Yeah
Everybody loves to tell me I was born an old soul
Better keep my eyes wide open
There’s so much that I don’t know
Just another hotel room
Never felt so all alone
I think about my granddad’s eyes,
And they always send me home
I can almost hear him now
Gotta make him proud
I keep my eyes wide open
Bless this ground, unbroken
I’m about to make my way
Heaven help me keep my faith
And my eyes wide open
La
Whoa
I can’t see two steps ahead of me,
When the fog comes rollin’ in
I never thought I’d miss the rain
Lord knows how long it’s been
This dream burns inside of me,
And I can’t just let it go
There’s still so much that I don’t know
I keep my eyes wide open
Bless this ground, unbroken
I’m about to make my way
Heaven help me keep my faith
And my eyes wide open, yeah
All I have is just this moment
And I don’t want to miss a second
‘Cause it could all be gone in an instant
Yeah, in an instant
I keep my eyes wide open
Bless this ground, unbroken
I’m about to make my way
Heaven help me keep my faith
And my eyes wide open
I’m about to make my way
Heaven help me keep my faith
My eyes wide open
Keep my eyes wide open

Interview

6:26 minutes

Red peeling paint
wood worn smooth

It is literally just hearts
a rainbow in the rain
I love unicorns

Who put pain in paint?
Why is whoa in worn?

My first crush was an idiot, a waste of time, and manipulative.

crumbling barn sits
On a hill
abandoned isolation
Solitude is a synonym for isolation.

What once lived in the barn?
A family of tiny screech owls?

I’m fearless. Sitting around doing nothing.
I don’t think about the coming month or even finishing this poem.
Nobody knows that I really belt out songs when I’m alone.
I make time to love people.

I am happy.
cuz that’s how I am.

Notification

3:24 minutes

This video was written by Cora (my 14 year-old INFJ granddaughter – Giraffe / yellow cobra) — and me (66 year-old INFJ Grandad / Black Unicorn / platypus).

I wrote two lines. Then she wrote two lines. Then we each wrote four lines, etc. In 4 iterations, this poem’s 31-line verse evolved.

Good vibes.

NOTIFICATION

My phone always
right beside me.

The name pops up on the screen
My favorite sight to see.

Buzz in your pocket
another “like”.

Imaginary love appears,
Yet another strike.

the awe of “feel good.”
momentary sham love.

short-lived delight,
a pushed-off shove

The silent alarm in my head
brings my focus back.

Go away pesky noise
Just let me be.

Social pressure?
No worth, so break free.

Why scramble for surface bait.
True love, is worth the wait.

To find a true someone
find your true self first.

losing your identity and gaining a partner?
what an unfortunate curse.

Things that feel real in the moment,
deception served through glass

Shallow surface partner
delusion won’t last

My phone always next to me

A notification pops up on my screen

Not the same feeling it used to be.

MISKIN & TEARE 2021

Kdenlive open-source video editing software on Linux Mint. Main audio track mixed in Audacity open-source editor. Song credit: Rockville – Patrick Patrikios. Closing music: Raging Streets – SefChol

Heart

4:07 minutes

YOUR NOT ALONE

So listen to me now
I’m not gonna stand here when my friend’s down and out
I’m not gonna run when it’s hard to figure it all out
If there’s anything I’d say, I will tell you right now

You’re not alone, you’re not alone, you’re not alone
You’re not alone, you’re not alone, you’re not alone
You’re not alone, you’re not alone, you’re not alone
You’re not alone, you’re not alone, you’re not alone

Listen to me now
Listen to me now!
O-o-o-o-oh, o-o-o-o-oh
O-o-o-o-oh, o-o-o-o-oh!

You’re not alone, you’re not alone, you’re not alone
You’re not alone, you’re not alone, you’re not alone
You’re not alone, you’re not alone, you’re not alone
You’re not alone, you’re not alone, you’re not alone

Glass Butterfly

5:56 minutes

Electric Love

Candy, she’s sweet like candy in my veins
Baby, I’m dying for another taste

And every night my mind is running around her
Thunder’s getting louder and louder

Baby, you’re like lightning in a bottle
I can’t let you go now that I got it
And all I need is to be struck
By your electric love (Ohh)
Baby, your electric love (Ahh)
Electric love

Drown me (Drown me), you make my heart beat like the rain
Surround me, hold me deep beneath your waves
(Oh)

And every night my mind is running around her
Thunder’s getting louder and louder and louder

Baby, you’re like lightning in a bottle
I can’t let you go now that I got it
And all I need is to be struck
By your electric love (Ohh)
Baby, your electric love (Ahh)
Electric love

(Ohh)
Rushing through me
Feel your energy rushing through me
Feel your energy rushing through me

Baby, you’re like lightning in a bottle
I can’t let you go now that I got it
And all I need is to be struck by your electric love (Ohh)
Baby, your electric love (Ahh)
Baby, you’re electric

Trauma Reading

Childhood trauma alters your life and soul forever.

Did you suffer loss, abuse, or neglect early-on in life?

It changes who you are.

You’ll suffer serious emotional disorders for decades to come.

It destroys your ability to foster caring and nurturing relationships.

Childhood trauma bricks up our potential in unimaginable ways.

Damaged tender hearts make it easy to put up walls.

Then it’s harder to find healing.

Healing childhood harms is difficult to repair.

But so necessary to create the life we want.

To get over the past, we start by facing it.

With bravery.

One step at a time.

Childhood trauma generates momentous emotions.

Learning to process these emotions stops repetitive damaging patterns.

They no longer keep us stuck and hurting.

Facing childhood trauma stops internal festering.

Our body then flushes the unconscious negative energy.

That poison wrecks everything — from our employment prospects to our romantic relationships.

We can change.

We extract the poison with recognition.

We forgive.

A miracle.

Empowered, drowned Ophelia rises from the suffocating waters of a lost childhood.

Astride her solid black horse, she races to freedom. Aware – and alive.

Sing

6:15 minutes

Thanks to Cora for inspiration.

Speechless

[Verse 1]
Here comes a wave meant to wash me away
A tide that is taking me under
Swallowing sand, left with nothing to say
My voice drowned out in the thunder

[Pre-Chorus]
But I won’t cry
And I won’t start to crumble
Whenever they try
To shut me or cut me down

[Chorus]
I won’t be silenced
You can’t keep me quiet
Won’t tremble when you try it
All I know is I won’t go speechless
‘Cause I’ll breathe
When they try to suffocate me
Don’t you underestimate me
‘Cause I know that I won’t go speechless

[Verse 2]
Written in stone
Every rule, every word
Centuries old and unbending
“Stay in your place”
“Better seen and not heard”
But now that story is ending

[Pre-Chorus]
‘Cause I
I cannot start to crumble
So come on and try
Try to shut me and cut me down

[Chorus]
I won’t be silenced
You can’t keep me quiet
Won’t tremble when you try it
All I know is I won’t go speechless, speechless
Let the storm in
I cannot be broken
No, I won’t live unspoken
‘Cause I know that I won’t go speechless

[Bridge]
Try to lock me in this cage
I won’t just lay me down and die
I will take these broken wings
And watch me burn across the sky
Hear the echo saying:

[Chorus]
I won’t be silenced
Though you wanna see me tremble when you try it
All I know is I won’t go speechless, speechless
‘Cause I’ll breathe
When they try to suffocate me
Don’t you underestimate me
‘Cause I know that I won’t go speechless

[Outro]
All I know is I won’t go speechless, speechless

Corazon

5:05 minutes

The Yellow Cobra is regarded as one of the most dangerous species of cobra in all of Africa, by virtue of its potent venom and frequent occurrence around houses.

Yellow

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah, they were all yellow
I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called, “Yellow”
So then I took my turn
Oh, what a thing to have done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
You know
You know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh, what a thing to do
‘Cause you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh, what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
And you know
For you I’d bleed myself dry
For you I’d bleed myself dry

It’s true
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And all the things that you do

Love bound

I love you.
Only 8 letters,
Yet the hardest to say.
Even if you really feel that way
I love you.
The sweetest sound,
But you can’t say it
you’re bound.
I love you.
Do they feel the same way?
And if they don’t, will things change?
I love you.
Do they love me?
you wish you could tell.
I guess if its meant to be,
It’ll be.

Kdenlive video editor