Not Yet

4:33 minutes

The seed for this video was a 100 beat-per-minute rock drum track. It is heard at the opening and closing of the video.

The song is an alternative cover of U2’s song “I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.” This version has male and female parts plus an extra verse in italics below:

I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For – U2

I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for
But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in the fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire

I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone

But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for
But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for

He will lift you
higher and higher
He will lift you up when you fall
He will be your shelter from the storm

I believe in the Kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
But yes, I’m still running

You broke the bonds
and you loosened chains
carried the cross of my shame, of my shame
You know I believe it

But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for
But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for

That extra verse changes the songs meaning – it there was any doubt. The song is 150bpm. I’ve found 1.3 and 1.5 multiples of the original beat will work on a song. So I used that trick here.

There is didgeridoo music from Australia in the back ground altered to 100bpm.

An altered guitar solo is Pink Floyd isolated and altered from 123bpm to 100bpm. It’s from the song “Comfortably Numb.”

Video clips

Video clips were all open source. I used an excerpt for a tour of the Portugal Lisbon temple. A tribute to my son who will soon serve there as a missionary. And the closing still is the Celestial room of the Philadelphia temple. A tribute to Saige serving in Washington DC and soon to go to Germany.

For me, this song is about “I still have found” the secret from my past childhood trauma. The parental abandonment I experienced after mom’s suicide attempt.